Prayers of The Heart, Pt. 4 of 7: The Defeat of Self // It’s Dawn Somewhere

For the longest time, I’ve wanted to run from the world and be away from it.

Music: Quotidian (Arr. Gabel) by Christoffer Moe Ditlevsen & Karoliina Gabel, as appears on Lambent

The world itself, I felt, has been full of distractions — things that tempt me and pull me away from the person I want to be and the things I want to do.

I’ve realized that the only true path to peace is to go into the world, face those temptations and evils, and actively work to overcome them.

Only when I can confront these challenges, and transfigure them through me, shall they be defeated in me.

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Time to wake up.

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It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

I’m possessed of a feeling of wholeness.

I know my due, and I seek it.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

I seek justice for my existence.

I seek to receive my due, as well as render what is due – in this case, they are one and the same.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

I will engage with the world by showing it itself to Itself.

I shall be willing to become a canvas for their grotesque painting; I shall accept the gifts of my loved ones.

Rending all images beautiful by entering willingly into crucibles of insanity in service of An Ideal.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

An image of Hate lashed on my flesh, the projection of their nightmare…

I shall be willing to accept it, so they know nightmares are real – as to avoid them.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

An image of Love imprinted on my heart, the sensation of their hearts ablaze near me…

I shall be willing to accept it, so they know selflessness is real – as to embrace it.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

I shall inflict a wound of Love on This World so deep, The Beast of Oblivion shall never again fully recover.

It’s dawn somewhere. I seek to receive my due.

~ CyberArtTime 2024